Mom I I let you down And though you say the days are Why is the off, and I'm fucked up? And mom, I know not around But don't you the blame on me As you pour another drink and
I we are who we are shining in the dark night, I drive on Maybe we took too far
I in headfirst Never about who what I said hurt, in what verse My mom probably got it the The of it, but as stubborn as we are Did I it too far? out my closet and all them other songs But regardless I hate you 'cause ma! You're still beautiful to me, you're my mom far be it for you to be calling, my house was Vietnam Desert and both of us put together Can form an atomic bomb to chemical warfare And forever we can this on and on But, to disagree gift from me up under the Christmas tree don't mean shit to me You're kicking me out? fifteen degrees and it's Christmas Eve (little prick just leave) Ma, let me my fucking coat, anything to have each other's goats Why we at each others throats? Especially when dad, he fucked us both We're in the same fucking boat, you'd think that it'd make us (nope) Further away that drove us, but together headlights shine, a car of belongings Still got a ways to go, back to grandma's house it's up the road And I was the man of the house, the oldest, so my shoulders carried the of the load Then Nate got away by the state at eight years old, and That's when I realized you were sick and it wasn't fixable or And to this day we remained estranged and I it though, but
I we are who we are Headlights in the dark night I drive on Maybe we this too far
'Cause to this day we remain estranged and I hate it 'Cause you ain't even get to witness grand baby's growth But I'm sorry mama for 'Cleaning Out My Closet', at the time I was maybe so, never meant that far to take it though, 'cause Now I know it's not your fault, and I'm not jokes That song I no play at shows and I cringe every time it's on the radio And I think of being placed in a home And all the you fed us And how I just wanted you to your own, but Now the medications over and your mental states deteriorating slow And I'm way too old to cry, shit's painful though But ma, I forgive you, so does yo All you did, all you said, you did your best to raise us Foster care, that you bare, few may be as heavy as yours But I you Debbie Mathers, oh what a tangled web we have, 'cause One thing I asked was where the fuck my deadbeat dad was Fuck it I guess he had trouble up with every address But I'd have flipped every mattress, rock and desert cactus Own a collection of maps and followed my kids to the edge of the Someone ever them from me? That you could bet your ass's If I had to come down the chimney dressed as Santa, them And although one has met their Once you up in our drive one night as we were leaving to get some hamburgers Me, her and Nate, we you, hugged you And as you left I had this sadness come over me As we pulled off to go our paths, and I saw headlights as I looked back And I'm mad I didn't get the chance to you for being my Mom and my Dad So Mom, accept this as a tribute I wrote this on the jet I guess I had to get this off my chest, I hope I get the chance to lay it before I'm The stewardess said to fasten my seat belt, I guess we're So if I'm not dreaming, I hope you get this message that I'll always love you afar 'Cause you're my
I we are who we are shining in the dark night I drive on Maybe we this too far
I a new life One a cause So I'm home tonight Well no matter the cost And if the plane down Or if the can't wake me up Just that I was alright And I was not to die
Oh even if there's to sing My children will me know that I'm alright I was not to die I put my faith in my new girl So I say goodbye cruel world know that I'm alright I am not to die
I we are who we are shining in the dark night I drive on Maybe we took this too far, I want a new