My tea's gone cold I'm why I. got out of bed at all The morning clouds up my window. and I see at all And if I could it'll all be gray, but your picture on my It reminds me, that not so bad, not so bad.
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Dear Slim, I wrote but you ain't callin I left my cell, my pager, and my phone at the bottom I sent two back in autumn, you must not-a got 'em There probably was a problem at the post or somethin Sometimes I addresses too sloppy when I jot 'em but anyways; fuck it, what's been up? Man how's daughter? My girlfriend's too, I'm bout to be a father If I have a daughter, guess what I'ma call I'ma her Bonnie I read your Uncle Ronnie too I'm sorry I had a friend kill himself over some bitch who want him I know you probably hear everyday, but I'm your biggest fan I even got the underground that you did with Skam I got a room full of your posters and your man I like the shit you did Rawkus too, that shit was fat Anyways, I hope you get man, hit me back, to chat, truly yours, your biggest fan This is
Dear Slim, you ain't called or wrote, I hope you have a chance I ain't mad - I just think it's FUCKED UP you don't answer If you didn't wanna talk to me your concert you didn't have to, but you coulda an autograph for Matthew That's my little man, he's only six years old We waited in the blistering for you, four and you just said, "No." That's pretty man - you're like his fuckin idol He wants to be just like you man, he likes you than I do I ain't mad though, I just don't like bein lied to Remember when we met in Denver - you said if I'd you you write back - see I'm just like you in a way I never my father neither; he to always cheat on my mom and beat her I can relate to you're saying in your songs so when I have a shitty day, I away and put 'em on cause I don't really got shit else so shit helps when I'm depressed I even got a tattoo of name across the chest Sometimes I even cut myself to see how it bleeds It's like adrenaline, the pain is such a sudden for me See everything you say is real, and I respect you cause you it My girlfriend's jealous cause I about you 24/7 But she don't know you I know you Slim, no one does She don't know what it was for people like us growin up You call me man, I'll be the biggest fan you'll ever lose yours, Stan -- P.S. We should be too
Mister-I'm-Too-Good-To-Call-Or-Write-My-Fans, this'll be the last I ever send your ass It's been six months and still no word - I deserve it? I you got my last two letters; I wrote the on 'em perfect So is my cassette I'm sending you, I hope you hear it I'm in the car right now, I'm 90 on the freeway Hey Slim, I drank a of vodka, you dare me to drive? You know the by Phil Collins, "In the Air of the Night" about guy who coulda saved that other guy from drowning but didn't, then Phil saw it all, at a a show he found him? That's kinda how this is, you rescued me from drowning Now it's too late - I'm on a 1000 downers now, I'm and all I wanted was a lousy letter or a I you know I ripped +ALL+ of your pictures off the wall I love you Slim, we coulda together, think about it You ruined it now, I hope you can't sleep and you about it And when you dream I hope you can't sleep and you SCREAM it I your conscience EATS AT YOU and you can't BREATHE without me See Slim; up bitch! I'm tryin to talk! Hey Slim, my girlfriend screamin in the trunk but I didn't slit her throat, I just tied her up, see I like you if she suffocates she'll suffer more, and then she'll die too Well, gotta go, I'm at the bridge now Oh shit, I forgot, how'm I supposed to send this shit
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Dear Stan, I to write you sooner but I just been busy You said your pregnant now, how far along is she? Look, I'm really flattered you would call daughter that and here's an autograph for brother, I it on the Starter cap I'm sorry I didn't see you at the show, I musta you Don't think I did that shit just to diss you But what's this shit you said about you to cut your wrists too? I say that shit clownin dogg, c'mon - how fucked up is You got some Stan, I think you need some counseling to help your ass from bouncing off the walls when you get down And what's this about us meant to be together? That type of shit'll make me not want us to meet each I really think you and your girlfriend need other or maybe you just to treat her better I hope you get to this letter, I just hope it reaches you in time before you hurt yourself, I that you'll be doin just fine if you a little, I'm glad I inspire you but Stan why are you so mad? Try to understand, I do want you as a fan I don't want you to do some crazy shit I seen this one shit on the news a couple weeks ago that me sick Some dude was and drove his car over a bridge and had his girlfriend in the trunk, and she was with his kid and in the car they found a tape, but didn't say who it was to Come to think about, his was. it was you Stan!